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my heart

We lost Dudley this past Sunday morning. Saturday night he experienced a seizure that left him gasping for air and foaming at the mouth. We rushed him to the ER vet and they put him under seizure watch to see if he had another one and what exactly it looked like. They called us at 3:00 am sunday and said that he'd had another and that he was having a hard time breathing. We asked the vet if it was her dog what would she do and she said that he was suffering and to put him through surgery or anymore testing would be hard on him. We had to say goodbye. just 3 weeks after losing my Cosmo. I can't really describe these last few weeks. I think when the hurt is so bad, you instinctively turn to nature. The little becomes big. The minute, amplified.

I wrote this 2 days before we lost Dudley. To help explain my pain for losing Cosmo.
but really can you? i tried.

my heart
Alertness beckons beautifully in the mist of the unknown
with each leaf rustle, i feel the pain of letting go.

Ornament online workshop

I'm so excited to announce I'll be a part of Christy Tomlinson's 12 Artsy Ornaments online workshop!!

here's the project for my portion of the class....
and here is all the info written from Christy about the class:
When does it start: Tuesday December 4th
what is it: It's a Five day mini workshop. Each day for five days (tuesday-saturday) 3 new ornament/holiday projects will be posted by one of our fabulous teachers!  We will have all sorts of fun projects including ornaments, holiday decor, gift giving projects and more!  
who is involved: This workshop will include the following teachers:  Margie Romney-Aslette, Jeanne Oliver, Chrissy Gardner, Alisa Burke, Mindy Lacefield, Juliette Crane, Shea Fragoso, Debbie Murray, Junelle Jacobson and Christy Tomlinson.....

only $24.95 or if you sign up before thanksgiving weekend, its only $19.95!


Dudley Elf and Santa Poodle
We said goodbye to our poodle of 14 years last night. He was a tough little guy. He was diabetic for 6 and a 1/2 much longer than the average 2 years life expectancy of a diabetic diagnosis.
This is us yesterday at the end.
When I knew the decision had to be made to let him go.
I'm hurting. empty.  numb to certain surroundings yet some of the most minuscule are amplified the simple is bigger. the big now small.
we grew into our own together. he loved snout kisses barking at our neighbor dog Zeke Carlisle. he loved watermelon  and rides in the car. he stood aside as Dudley rooted his way to the water bowl patiently waiting.
He was simply the love of my life. 8/15/98 - 10/31/12

During this time, I'm taking a break from all that now seems small.....Facebook, email, twitter, etc.  For the next few weeks, I must take this time to fully feel and grieve. I'll be deactivating my facebook account on Friday (11-2) and won't be answer…